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Breathe success.

24 Apr

Most likely you have seen this floating about the interwebs, but I couldn’t pass up putting it on my blog.

Success: How bad do you want it?

An excerpt from the top comment describes what I felt when I watched it: “When you understand the hunger, you can’t get through this without crying. And if that’s just me, I’m fine with that. But if you watch this and don’t feel something powerful inside, if you don’t feel the God-given potential you were born with rising in the back of your throat, then you’re already in the middle of what you’ll be doing for the rest of your life.”

That God-given potential rising in the back of your throat. Wow. That’s what it is. Even as I think about it, the sensation returns.

I immediately applied this to my singing. It is my #1. So what am I doing every single day to improve that? What am I doing every single day to get myself closer to achieving a career in music? What am I doing every single day to live in my destiny?

Then, of course, fitness is a very close second. I was reflecting on this earlier today- I may think I know what I am doing… but obviously what I know and my actions are not producing the changes I want to see. I have been thinking for a while about having a trainer/nutritionist, but the excuse of it being fiscally possible was always my excuse. It shouldn’t be. If I want something bad enough, I will make it happen no matter what. As long as I can find an unbiased third party to take a look at what I am doing, and what I want to achieve, and who is very honest I think it would be extremely helpful. Jury is still out.

I was struck when I went to watch the video of the whole speech (Full speech here) and he mentioned cell phones. o.o I have gotten in the habit of using my cell phone in bed, looking at Facebook, YouTube, email, and I am loosing sleep for what? If I am loosing sleep it should be contributing to my success! New Goal for the board: no cell phone in bed. Oo. Sacrifice.

I have to say, this is the kick in the butt I needed. Stop whining, stop wondering. “You’ll never plow a field by turning it over in your mind.” (Irish proverb)

All this being said, I do have a tendency to go really hard after something, and burn out at about 2 months. So I know I need balance. This is just a nice little fire ^.~

PS- Dress rehearsal was grand! A little too grand…I was getting quite nervous by it going so well until a screwed up, and I felt better.  But alas, it was not enough. I has many more flubs on opening night, but overall it went quite well. I sang great, which was awesome! Also, we had more audience than anticipated, which was a pleasant surprise! I don’t have my hopes high for tonight, though :/ Ah, well. I shall have fun! Honestly, it is such a fun show, and I love hanging out with everyone, and my on-stage twin ^^ I should have pictures for you next post!

Where do you find motivation? Are you good at long distance goals or better at shorter ones? Have you had to enlist outside help?

LAZARUS, COME FORTH!! – Pains and gains

3 Apr

Seriously, this image is burned into my brain >_<

 Carman? Anybody? Anybody??

In short, I AM BACK FROM THE DEAD.

Sorry, I’ve just been crazy busy. As I mentioned before, I was in 3 shows at once. Now I am down to 1, but there have been many happenings…

So I had very little time to go to the gym, but I also wasn’t going because of pain. I have had a lot of tightness deep in my right  hip (middle of my glute) up to my lower back, and this is something that happens occasionally, especially when I stop working out all of a sudden. I usually just have to tough it out, but it wasn’t getting better. I got a massage, which made it worse, then it got a little better, then when I finally had no pain on my right, the problem appeared on my left! (It is always one side or the other, not both, thank God.)

Unfortunately, it got so bad last week that at 2 AM it seized up so badly and was sooooo paralytically painful I went to the ER. Sadly, they only gave me one pill, so in the morning I was back in pain (it took me an hour to inch out of my bed and hobble down the mile to the bathroom using a folding chair as a walker) but I was able to move more as the day went by and my sister helped me to a clinic to get a prescription for muscle relaxers. I am still wary of it, so I haven’t done any running or leg exercises. This afternoon I shall atempt intervals! *fingers crossed*

My other interesting incident occured on Friday. I was super excited to finally be performing a leading role I am perfect for, and to show off the progress I have made vocally. So, all through work I am fine, and I go to my alma mater to warm up my voice. The middle range seemed fuzzy, but I was taking it easy. Top notes? Fine.

I go to the theatre, and suddenly it is all not fine. Somehow, in that 45min it took me to travel I had lost my voice. Like, NOTHING coming out. It was pretty disappointing. Everyone was super sweet and supportive, though. An announcement was made to inform the audience of my condition, but most of the audience were my firends anyway. I squeaked through my first 3 numbers, but knew I couldn’t do any more. The director told me he wanted me to finish the show rather than having the other girl go on, so I was on stage acting, and the other girl was singing for me. I ended up having a blast! Of course initially I was frustrated, but there was nothing I could do to magically make my voice come back. I had a great time just acting the role. By not having my attention divided on singing (technique, tone, breath) I was able to act very specifically, and turned out to be a very rewarding experience. ^__^ Crazy, huh?

Like I said, my time has been taken up with shows, but to be honest I also haven’t been posting because I haven’t been working out. I guess I just feel shy about it. Or that if I did post Holden Caulfield would stick a fat finger in my face and declaim “PHONEY!” But thusfar, no hunting caps have made an appearence, so I think I’m in the clear.

Whew! So wordy! Luckily, I have still been snapping photos of noms >_>  Comin’ at cha on the morrow!

Supermassive photo post!

9 Mar

The last two days have been so very shiny!
My breakfast… don’t laugh…

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Oats with cinnamon, Apple sauce, and rice whip cream. Oh yes. I thought, what the heck. It was nice and creamy ^^
Lunch? Bam!

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Ginger and clove turkey patties with more quinoa and wilted spinach and kale.
I was so excited all day because I wad going to the screening of Blue Like Jazz!!
In line, everyone received a gratis Twizzler from the director.

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Yes, Steven Taylor was handing these out to each person. So adorable.

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That is Steven on the left, and the author Donald Miller on the right. Me, as red faced chick 😛

I was filling out the survey at the end, and thank goodness my friend caught my attention, otherwise I would have missed my name in the credits! Blue Like Jazz is such a fabulous book, and they did a wonderful job with the film.

http://youtu.be/GOglQgyxYkI

I was extremely curious how they could turn Blue Like Jazz into a movie. The book is an internal monologue of the author, asking questions about God, and his interaction with the world around him, and organizing his observations into coherent realizations. I love this book so much , as does everyone I have ever met who has read it. Don’s style of writing is just perfect. I wish I would write like him. His words come off the page so easily, and you become his best friend. It was like he is writing from my own thoughts. I was so pleased with the film, because it kept the honesty of the book. The movie didn’t turn into a “christian conversion” movie. It wasn’t defensive of any belief. It was depicting a young adult’s journey of individuality, and it was beautiful. The entire movie I felt like hugging the screen. Like, a big ol’ bear hug. Full body hug. Can cradle it to my bosom. A lot of if was filmed in Portland, Oregon, so of course it was beautiful, and made me want to make love to the screen! **For the record, in the Q&A Don said that Reed Collage (where the movie takes place) is worse than what is depicted. Ha! Keep that in mind.** I took a friend of mine, who said that the overwhelming support really struck him. See, about 4 years ago, a major investor backed out of the project, which basically meant that the movie was not going to be made. To make a long story short, the project was handed over to the public. and in 30 days 4,495 people raised $345,995 to put the movie into production! WHAT?!

Read more detail about the production and the movie itself at www.BlueLikeJazzTheMovie.com

Blue Like Jazz opens April 13, and I am plugging this because I really believe in this project and its positive message.
This morning I skipped work. OHyes. Massive shopping trip to Trader Joe’s!! Many fresh things, and I feel much better with my refrigerator and pantry shelves stocked. I feel more secure knowing I have a plethora of good things to choose from.

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I am convinced Trader Joe’s has direct shipment from heaven itself. This chicken quesadilla was BANGIN’! Just defrost, and made crispy in a pan with some coconut oil. On a bed of spinach? Muuuuaaahh~
Among my mountain of healthy food, I picked these up:

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I knew it was a bad idea. But they were so good! Note the past tense. Yup. They are all gone.
The rest if the afternoon was spent in the kitchen! WIN! (Similar to reading, I have recently discovered how much baking brings me joy!)

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Turkey Meatloaf Muffins

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All wrapped up and ready for snacks!
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On top is a variant of the Chocolate protein bars I have been wanting to do for a very long time: Chocolate Almond Coconut. I added almond extract (I love almond flavoring) and sliced almonds to the batter, and dusted finely shaved coconut on top!
Another fav. of mine is the Cinnamon Swirl protein bread. Mmmm. That one I am going to take to work, as my co workers keep hearing about the things I make but never get to try them! Also, made especially for giving away…
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Funfetti Chocolate Chip Cookies! Nothing healthy about these folks! Those are going to work as well 😛

Tonight was my last performance of Trial By Jury, which wad held at The New York Bar Association. Appropriate, no? Then right after that performance I went to catch another rehearsal! Whew.

These past two says have just been so wonderful, and I have been so happy. It is a very nice to feel this shiny.

Sleep now! More rehearsals tomorrow! Start your weekend right!

Little victories

29 Feb

That awesome moment when you realize you have Fruit Stripe gum in your purse ^_______^

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my childhood

Triumph! I did not have free pizza at work! After I ate, I went back to the kitchen hoping it would not be there to tempt me again, and I breathed a sigh of relief when it wasn’t. I enjoyed some turkey burgers I whipped up this morning with diced sun-dried tomatoes and paprika 🙂

This evening, I performed with Blue Hill Troupe at the Harvard Club
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2 wonderful gentlemen, and lovely friends. (Red face! I was so hot!)

I’m proud of myself for making myself go to the gym. It is late for me, so I couldn’t do my full workout, but I am really happy I lifted.

Yay, it rained all day! I love it.